little stogie

yep, it had to be unfortunately, couldn't be helped.  we wanted it to be good for you until the last moment and it was.  no references to her actual health and what she went through.  just love and care and attention.  she was happy just to sit in the yard in the sun and feel free.  that's all she needed.  why she died was her poor health.  your daughter told you so, used the word 'dying'...and you accepted it would be a matter of time.  we've got a plan for how to handle the body.  don't bury her in the front yard.  she belongs in the place where the bush didn't grow and the slugs ate it.
we talked about this when I was here tonight.  it's why you're doing ok.  what happened with ann and arabella was preparation for the coming home and finding her. 
I thought she was sleeping peacefully on the porch and she had just died.   yep.   and that's a chapter in your life that is now over.  she was a part of the family and now she is gone.  there will be other pets.  as I say, wehave a plan.